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[tucky]

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[tucky]

Yeah, okay. You can do that. You got anything in mind right now?

[beejfu]

Uncontrollable bouts of crying?

[tucky]

Um-- not not normal human shit.

[beejfu]

Shit. Okay.

What about info-dumping on people about other, more famous people you had sex with?

[tucky]

I broke down crying on Barbara a few weeks ago. It was because I was having a lot of big feelings and I'd been keeping them inside me, and eventually they had to come out.

[Helpful? context?? Maybe????]

-- And for the sex thing, humans definitely do that, too. Were you trying to make them jealous?

[beejfu]

Shit. Okay, no, this is good. So when you're human, when you get too full of feelings and emotions, crying makes it stop?

Shit, okay, that makes a....weird amount of sense.

No! I just thought it was a fun thing to mention.

[tucky]

It doesn't make it stop, but it makes it easier to deal with.

-- And you know what, the sex thing is still a human thing. Especially for guys.

[beejfu]

So Care Bear is full of shit.

Because my sex drive has not gone away at all. I'm like. Weirdly oversensitive? I didn't know that wind made a noise or you could feel sunlight. Fucking crazy, right?

[tucky]

Anything that sounds too easy is probably full of shit.

[Also you couldn't hear the wind before? What the fuck, BJ.]

Did you think having a sex drive was a demon thing?

[beejfu]

I mean, maybe? Humans don't talk about sex much to demons.

What's an allergy test and how do I get one?

[tucky]

We might have some in the infirmary. Did you eat something and get sick from it?

[beejfu]

No, but Kep mentioned it might be something I should check out since I was sick off the ship.

But that could be just me eating garbage instead of human food.

[tucky]

It might've been food poisoning. That's a human thing, too, if you eat rotten things.

[beejfu]

Are you kidding me? Food can poison you?

[tucky]

Rotten food.

[beejfu]

Right right right. Huh. Okay. Makes sense.

Thanks Tiff.

[tucky]

You're welcome.

I think you're gonna be okay, Betelgeuse.

[beejfu]

Yeah?

That makes me feel really good inside. I have some major problems believing in myself and trying to fix everything AND also take care of an inmate and treading an invisible line where if I fuck up I go back to being banished to the realm of the living is just really overwhelming.

[tucky]

Sometimes I have problems believing in myself, too. It gets easier, even if it doesn't always get totally natural.

Don't kill any inmates, or fuck them over on purpose, or throw your weight around and be a dick. Maybe don't think of it as taking care of inmates either, unless you get put with somebody who's into that. And-- I don't know. Fixing shit is a whole, like, process; you can't do it all at once.

[beejfu]

Is it weird that talking about how fucking overwhelming this is makes it less overwhelming?

[tucky]

Human thing. Big human thing.

[beejfu]

Cool. Cool.

Hey; thanks. Thanks for this.

[tucky]

You're welcome. I'm not going anywhere, so... anytime you wanna talk about this stuff.

[beejfu]

You're better at that shit than I am.

I don't know why it happens but when things get crazy bad I just wanna vanish. I did it when I graduated and it really fucked with people and I don't know how to....I don't know, I wanted to get away for them.

And it just feels really overwhelming, you know? Like everyone was really nice to me and I treated them like crap when I was an inmate, and then I suddenly REALIZED I treated them like crap and felt all that shit hit me like a ton of bricks and didn't want to be hurting them any more so I ran but running was the shittier option? Somehow?

Jesus christ. Sorry. Sorry, that didn't make any sense.

[tucky]

It kind of makes sense. In a really confusing way.

You know you treated them like crap, but do you know, like, specifics? Do you know how to not do it again?