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[tucky]

[If I don't have an active post up, feel free to use this post to have your character call, videochat, text, or knock on Tiffany's door.]

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[beejfu]

[he looks a little miserable about it, but nods]

[tucky]

... You know, she really cares about you a lot, even if you don't want me using the l-word. I can tell.

[beejfu]

[he huffs, slumping down]

Yeah. I know. She shows me.

[tucky]

And that's good, right?

[beejfu]

Yeah. Yeah, it just..

I don't know. I can't make her love me.

[tucky]

[Tiffany pauses for a moment, at a loss for words; she has a very romanticized view of warden/inmate relationships to begin with, and that strikes her as very sad. But he's also not wrong, so--]

Yeah.

But caring very much ain't nothing, right? And you're not unloved.

[beejfu]

[he nods, more firm now that he's encouraged about it]

Rhysball loves me. And Rosie told me I have a home with her. And Hange DID invite me back if I wanted. That's showing she cares.

[tucky]

She does for sure. Like I said, I don't even know her that well and I can see it.

... You know. You remind me of me, a little bit.

[beejfu]

Yeah?

How so?

[tucky]

I think we, like-- deal with it differently, but I wasn't ever used to feeling loved, either.

[beejfu]

[he nods, a little, and stretches an arm out around Tiffany's shoulders comfortingly]

Sucks, doesn't it?

[tucky]

[Awww. She leans into him a little.]

Yeah, but that gets better, too. I used to be really desperate, and I don't feel like that anymore.

[beejfu]

What used to make you desperate?

[tucky]

Anyone being kind to me, at all, for any reason. Even if it was only a little bit, or if they had bad intentions; I didn't notice or care. I would just hang on.

[beejfu]

Hey; I feel that. I used to make clones of myself just so I'd have someone to talk to. I didn't care if people didn't wanna be around m, I wanted to be seen.

Guess this place changed the both of us.

[tucky]

People here do that. People like Rhys, right?

[beejfu]

Yeah.

Who's your Rhys?

[tucky]

I don't really have just one.

Dillon Cole, maybe. Roderick. Other people who aren't here anymore and who you never met.

[beejfu]

[he nods, and gives Tiffany a comforting squeeze]

[tucky]

But hey, I'm not alone here. I got Lark, and Iris and Barbara, and Misty. Nick. Callisto, even, even though I don't, like-- rely on her emotionally.

[beejfu]

[he grins at the mention of most of these people, nodding, until Callisto is brought up]

You can rely on your inmate like that?

I mean, not California, obvs, she's scary as shit now that I can feel pain, but in general.

[tucky]

I think it depends on the person, and the relationship you got.

[beejfu]

Yeah.

I don't mind if she kills me for turning human, fyi. I mean, I DO, but she seems pretty broken up about it.

She's intense.

[tucky]

I was really glad when I got put with her and everybody thinks I'm crazy for it.

[A slight exaggeration, but.]

[beejfu]

At least you'll never be bored!

Like, she's intense but at least she's consistent and doesn't try to fuck with your mind or your emotions or play tricks on you.