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[tucky]

[If I don't have an active post up, feel free to use this post to have your character call, videochat, text, or knock on Tiffany's door.]

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[tucky]

You're welcome. I'm not going anywhere, so... anytime you wanna talk about this stuff.

[beejfu]

You're better at that shit than I am.

I don't know why it happens but when things get crazy bad I just wanna vanish. I did it when I graduated and it really fucked with people and I don't know how to....I don't know, I wanted to get away for them.

And it just feels really overwhelming, you know? Like everyone was really nice to me and I treated them like crap when I was an inmate, and then I suddenly REALIZED I treated them like crap and felt all that shit hit me like a ton of bricks and didn't want to be hurting them any more so I ran but running was the shittier option? Somehow?

Jesus christ. Sorry. Sorry, that didn't make any sense.

[tucky]

It kind of makes sense. In a really confusing way.

You know you treated them like crap, but do you know, like, specifics? Do you know how to not do it again?

[beejfu]

Sure. Don't run away, don't call Hange mom, be more considerate with Rhys' feelings and sleeping outside our relationship.

Bill's a tougher nut to crack but I think just running pissed him off.

[tucky]

You called Hange mom?

[Wait no that's not the most important bit here.]

Did you apologize for all that stuff?

[beejfu]

She always felt like a mom to me but she hates it.

Yeah. I think. Mostly it was a blanket 'sorry for everything.'

[tucky]

You could try something that's more specific than that.

[beejfu]

I don't know if they wanna hear from me or not.

[tucky]

What if you do it on the network so they don't have to answer right away if they don't want to?

[beejfu]

How are you so good at answering questions? I'm amazed.

[tucky]

I got more practice being a human than you.

... And I'm thinking about things I'd want somebody to do if they hurt me.

[beejfu]

Kick 'em in the balls?

[tucky]

No! Not all the time, anyway. I have done it before.

[beejfu]

Ha! Well, that's good, because I found out how much pain really sucks!

[tucky]

I think just making sure they know you're really and truly sorry will make a difference.

They might need time, though.

[beejfu]

How much time do you think? Because I've got another 20, 30 years tops before I'm recently deceased again.

[tucky]

I don't actually know Rhys and Hange too well, but probably not that long. Twenty or thirty years is a really long time for a human.

[beejfu]

Yeah? That's hopeful. I can do that time.

[tucky]

Just try to be a good listener, too. Hear what they have to say, even if it's hard.

[beejfu]

Because I get so easily distracted?

[tucky]

Or maybe they'll have things to say that won't make you very happy.

[beejfu]

I'm not gonna get mad if someone tells me they wanna say they loved the Joel Schumacher version of Phantom of the Opera.

[tucky]

And what if they describe in a lot of detail about how much it hurt them when you left without saying goodbye and how much they're having trouble trusting you now?

[beejfu]

[he falls silent]

[tucky]

You know, it. It means they love you. No one gets that hurt if they don't care.