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see, now i can understand if a few people don't approve of your warden style. you start respecting people or their choices and you don't know what sort of madness that could lead to. thats the sort of thing that would make the barge a dangerous and uncomfortable place.

we have to stick to the stuff that works. no maiming than no morals, solid life lesson.

ive really heard people say stuff that sounded like that and they meant it

i've met similar people. i can understand it if they want punishment but it's hard to believe they could really believe that it would lead to anything positive

i know

they should just admit its about wanting to get them out of the way for a while instead of pretending its gonna do them any good for them

it can even be understandable. its different here but back home, for example, theres this serial killer who we locked up to stop him killing again. no one thinks its going to make him a better person.

wardens need to figure out what they think being an inmate means

locking up a serial killer at home isnt the same as taking one to a prison ship in space though

do you mean wardens as a group cuz i don't think wardens as a group are going to agree on anything together ever, and i dont think thats a bad thing

that's what i mean. people come in with ideas of how prisoners should be dealt with that don't really apply to this environment.

definitely not as a whole but if you think inmates need to be saved or have just made the wrong choices or whatever... maybe thats just what id like to know

i think everybody here has made some bad choices

and i think some inmates need to be saved and some dont, and its the same as wardens. lots of wardens make deals for themselves or their worlds, i dont know how anybody can say wardens dont need saving.

but i think if somebody does not want saving, then its wrong to try to force it on them. and i mean the people who really dont want saving, not the ones who are in awful situations that they think they deserve or dont have any choice about.

i think it all depends on what you think saving is. i think that theres a lot here that can help people. being removed from bad situations, meeting types of people that they might not have believed existed, being given a whole new way to see the world.

its just. ive made plenty of bad choices so i would take back and some i wouldnt but whether they were good or bad really doesnt matter, there were things i had to do.

ive heard a lot of wardens say stuff like that too so if anybody tells you thats why youre an inmate, theyre probably being a hypocrite

and i was helped a lot by people here but i dont think anybody saved me. it wasnt like that.

i wish you were a warden.

secret warden parties must be so boring.

seriously, i wont say that i like being here or enjoy being an inmate but im glad we can be friends despite the arbitrary lines people like to draw. just try not to overly concerned about how you treat me even though im stuck and you arent

ok

but thats not why i said i wish you were a warden, i wish you were a warden because you would be a better one than a lot of the ones weve got now.

it probably helps that im not working for a wish. thats the sort of thing that can make some pushy

i think theres a lot of people who wouldnt be here if they werent getting anything out of it.

thats most things in life. i suppose thats why im not standing in the corner with the people who resent wardens on principle

if you change your mind i hope you still talk to me

i would but i doubt it would come to that. im not good at holding on to resentment. im easily tired.

youre not easily broken right

[There's a slight pause before he replies.]

not by what the barge has to offer

good

youre kind of keeping me sane here

thats what friends are for.

do you want to hear a story?

i would love to hear a story

Anton's the sort of man who takes everything very seriously. I think it's related to his magic; he's a Gist user - all his determination and hatred and rage combine and are released as a ghost like image that destroys everything - it's a dangerous discipline, if you let out the Gist for too long it takes control and the real person is reduced to a spirit living inside a monster. Whatever the cause, he often verges on solemn. Larrikin loved to wind him up, whispering jokes during dangerous missions or making wild claims and insisting he seriously believed them.

There was this one mission, all the Dead Men together. Imagine the scene: it's 1850, the last three days have been spent huddled in a French field. Everyone's wet and hungry, excluding Skulduggery, and waiting for the order to strike. Suddenly, Larrikin decides it's Anton's birthday and nothing can be said to dissuade him. Anton's trying to argue with him while everyone else is practically falling over from laughter.

Our targets are passing by. And Larrikin starts singing a happy birthday song and tries to give Anton a hug. Now, Anton is not a hugging type of person. Larrikin's going for the hug and Anton's grabbing him to keep him quiet and they end up in an intense, but completely silent, wrestling match. Finally, Anton gets him into a chokehold so he's lying there in the mud, face turning red, and then he manages to pull out a very crushed bun. He'd been hiding it for three days. He stuck a candle in it and declared it was Anton's birthday cake.

That was the only time we ever saw Anton Shudder smile while on a mission.

[She could ask what Gist is, or why they were laying low in a field, or who their targets were. But she doesn't. The story is perfect even without explanations.]

Somebody I'll tell you a story back, when I'm not so fucking tired.

It'll be something to look forward to.

Ghastly used to say that's why we won the war. Not because of that mission but because of those moments. We were fighting for our friends, we were willing to die to for them. The other side, they were fighting to bring back their gods but more importantly they wanted to be there when their gods returned, to rule the world. They weren't willing to sacrifice themselves and so miss out on their share. There was no companionship, no trust.

We came together and we won and having those friends is what allowed us to stay sane through to that victory.

[He smiles, growing less serious.] And he accused me of being too flowery.

Edited (sorry, mix up in sentence order) 2016-02-11 01:43 (UTC)

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