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[tucky]

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[tucky]

What about Cambridge? He ain't always nice, but he's always honest.

[super_seal]

So there's something in the rituals or the communion that keeps your missing?

[ataashihunter]

[He rubs his forehead.]

It is more complicated than that. All Qunari have this savage side to them, but the Qun makes it easier to manage. Strict rules about how we are supposed to live and stuff like that. Without it there is nothing to keep us from indulging in the savage side.

Cambridge.. I don't know if it will help. I can try but I don't know.

[tucky]

Why don't you think it'd help?

[super_seal]

It doesn't sound to me like it's what keeps you from indulging, you do that on your own. But, it sounds like it gives you a reason, or tools, or support to keep you from losing control. What happens with the Qun?

[ataashihunter]

If you start slipping they re-educate you. Tiff has said people wont do that here.

And I think it will take more than just talk, Tiff.

[tucky]

[She gives Steve a light nudge with her elbow, and a grin. She likes his way of thinking.]

What do you think it'll take?

[super_seal]

Re-educate? [ Steve raises an eyebrow. ] What does that mean? Exactly. [ He's got a fairly good idea, but yeah he wants it spelled out so there's no confusion on his part. ]

[ A smile returns Tiffany's grin. ]

[ataashihunter]

Basically you take away someone's humanity and dignity enough that they will do whatever you want to get it back.

[He stands up to fetch the paper he has by now showed to both Tiff and Iris. He glances at it before he looks over at Steve and hands it over. ]

I think it will take something like re-education.

[tucky]

... It didn't help you last time, Bull. It just got you here, with me locking you up 'cause I'm scared of you hurting more people I care about.

Why do you think it's gonna help you know?

[super_seal]

[ Steve read over the page once quickly and then a second time slower. He was familiar with the tactics, seen it first hand and had bared witness to the results. He'd even used similar ideas, although less drastic and in a very short term way, in the rendition room he'd created for 5-O back home. ]

This how you get brought into the Qun too? You have no true belief in it's rules or the way of life it proposes? The only thing that keeps you in line, is the brain washing and fear of being tortured... Sorry, re-educated?

[ataashihunter]

No, we are raised in the Qun. And we learn that the Qun has a place for everyone and that that place is predetermined. That you are a part of a larger thing, being almost, and you have to do your duty so that everyone benefits.

And it did work before Tiff. For many years. I just need it again and I'll be good for many more.

[tucky]

What if you found something different that works for longer?

[super_seal]

[ Steve nodded towards Tiffany. ] Perhaps it's time for something different.

What you're basically saying is you need the brainwashing to keep control of yourself. I think you're stronger than that Bull.

Are there... healthy rituals that are part of the Qun? Something else that you can channel your energy through and help you find that inner calm?

[ataashihunter]

Yeah that is what I am saying, Steve. Do you really think I am stronger than that? Didn't you walk past Eggsy and Alec? How long should I keep looking for something different?

[tucky]

Maybe you should start first before you start thinking about when you're gonna stop.

[super_seal]

Yes. Yes I do think you're stronger than that!

I don't know what happened with Eggsy and Alec but I highly doubt that you hunted them down and maliciously killed either one of them.

You said you've been feeling out of control for a while, what have you been doing about it?

[ataashihunter]

I've been doing what Qunari do to clear their head which is taking a beating.

I don't know why that happened with Alec. Yes I threw a punch at him, but then I told him to leave, plenty of times. He didn't. Alec can fight too, why didn't he fight back?

[tucky]

Why'd you throw a punch at him in the first place?

[super_seal]

I'm not saying I haven't tried that myself in the past, but I can't say I've really found it all that successful in clearing my head. Do you?

[ That catches Steve as odd. ] ... What was he doing instead?

[ataashihunter]

Because he told me I was a fuck up. I ... I just meant it to be a warning so I could go back to my cabin.

He tried telling me what to do, said I couldn't control myself, called me an animal, said I fucked everything up. Spit in my face.

[tucky]

[Tiffany goes quiet here, letting Steve take this one.]

[super_seal]

[ Steve frowned, the investigator in him coming to the forefront. ] Why would he taunt you like that? Did something happen that lead up to that?

Besides, what difference does it make what Alec thinks? Surely you don't believe him or care what about his opinion. Why let him get to you like that?

[ataashihunter]

Some stuff happened in the Breach. I.. It was my job to get information for Sinjir, Alec was one of the targets.

I... It hadn't just been him though. Felt like he was just saying what this whole ship was thinking.

[super_seal]

Sinjir... I don't think I know... Who is... Targets?! Why? [ This wasn't what he was expecting, not that he knew what to expect but this wasn't it. Clearly Steve's confused about who Sinjir is, why Bull would be getting information for him or why Alec would be a target. Back-tracking he takes another deep breath and lets it out slow. ] Okay, what happened?