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- tlv: !ic,
- tlv: anthony j. crowley,
- tlv: arthas menethil,
- tlv: aya mikage,
- tlv: barbara gordon,
- tlv: boyd crowder,
- tlv: dean winchester,
- tlv: dillon cole,
- tlv: eugene b. sledge,
- tlv: hugh cambridge,
- tlv: iris wildthyme,
- tlv: leticia "letty" ortiz,
- tlv: mason,
- tlv: merlin,
- tlv: ricki tarr,
- tlv: simon monroe,
- tlv: stephanie brown,
- tlv: vergil sparda
♻ 015 | video
[The rips had closed up days ago, but Tiffany doesn't trust that right away - people were still missing and there was clearly something weird going on down at the port, so she refrains from acting like everything is over and done with yet. When people start appearing back on the ship, however, she tentatively lets herself start to believe that things really are winding down... which leads to another problem, for her.]
So, uh… during all that, I had some trouble, and Mason took my soul out of my body for a little bit, so I wouldn't be in pain and couldn't get hurt. He was great, by the way; a fucking badass - strong and brave and fighting monsters. He saved my life. He was a hero.
Y'all tell him that the next time you see him, okay?
[He revels in compliments and praise the same way she does; she has a feeling he'll like it.
And it’s so, so tempting to just focus on that and end the post right there - to do something similar to what she did after the jaeger breach and just gush about how so many people had helped her, and how nice it feels to know she has them in her corner. To just ignore the uncomfortable parts in favor of the good.
But it wouldn’t work as well the second time, and for once, she isn’t sure she’d want it to.]
But when I was out of myself, I tried to go inside a monster, and it-- I didn't really do it, but I almost did, and I felt its soul. It was the worst thing I have ever felt in my life; it was worse than dying in my dreams during that flood. It felt evil, and now my soul feels tainted.
[It isn't, really - luckily for her, any aftereffects from the experience are all in her head.]
I died a lot and then I did that, and I'm worried my soul is turning bad because of it. I don't got any real evidence, so it might not be, but... I think I would appreciate it if someone could check, or try to do an exorcism on me. Just in case.
[She smiles a twitchy smile that doesn't reach her eyes.]
I ain't panicking this time, like I did before. But if there's something wrong with me, I wanna get it fixed.
Thanks.
[filtered to Simon]
... Hey, Simon. Hi.
[filtered to Cambridge]
Maybe when we do our next therapy meeting, we can talk about this? About dying and stuff. I don’t…
I don't think I’m handling it too well.
[filtered to Ricki]
Can I talk to you?
[warden filter]
So, uh… during all that, I had some trouble, and Mason took my soul out of my body for a little bit, so I wouldn't be in pain and couldn't get hurt. He was great, by the way; a fucking badass - strong and brave and fighting monsters. He saved my life. He was a hero.
Y'all tell him that the next time you see him, okay?
[He revels in compliments and praise the same way she does; she has a feeling he'll like it.
And it’s so, so tempting to just focus on that and end the post right there - to do something similar to what she did after the jaeger breach and just gush about how so many people had helped her, and how nice it feels to know she has them in her corner. To just ignore the uncomfortable parts in favor of the good.
But it wouldn’t work as well the second time, and for once, she isn’t sure she’d want it to.]
But when I was out of myself, I tried to go inside a monster, and it-- I didn't really do it, but I almost did, and I felt its soul. It was the worst thing I have ever felt in my life; it was worse than dying in my dreams during that flood. It felt evil, and now my soul feels tainted.
[It isn't, really - luckily for her, any aftereffects from the experience are all in her head.]
I died a lot and then I did that, and I'm worried my soul is turning bad because of it. I don't got any real evidence, so it might not be, but... I think I would appreciate it if someone could check, or try to do an exorcism on me. Just in case.
[She smiles a twitchy smile that doesn't reach her eyes.]
I ain't panicking this time, like I did before. But if there's something wrong with me, I wanna get it fixed.
Thanks.
[filtered to Simon]
... Hey, Simon. Hi.
[filtered to Cambridge]
Maybe when we do our next therapy meeting, we can talk about this? About dying and stuff. I don’t…
I don't think I’m handling it too well.
[filtered to Ricki]
Can I talk to you?
[warden filter]
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Seems they are smarter than your average beast. The problem here, is it followed you. different creatures require different things to kill them. Mostly anything dies from beheading. You may want to trade your pipe for a knife if you have the stomach for it. Kill anything before it can follow you to those you aim to protect. That and sometimes, the best protection is to keep away.
If it is you they are after or that crossed them, than going to others will lead the beast to whatever, or whoever you are going to. That is unwise.
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Your doing fine, Tiffany. We all mess up now and then. People die, and it is frustrating, but life goes on. Mourn your failures and push on. Let nothing stand in your way.
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Some things are you just have to let go.its iritating, I know.
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Maybe he's out of my league, but he's not supposed to be out of the warden's league. They're supposed to do something.
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[ The blue eyes stay trained on her.]
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Wardens. Inmates talk like you.
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[She doesn't feel let down by any individuals. She just feels disillusioned by the whole Barge setup.]
This is just... it's fucking stupid. It's awful.
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[ He felt bad for her, it was hard not to. Even with his cold heart.] The books are still waiting, plural now. One is basic self defense. You can learn some of that yourself. The other is a book of signs that the supernatural is around... half of it is nonsense but some things are very important.
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Nothing. 'Cause it ain't safe here, and if I thought it was I'd be lying to myself.
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You want to be more than that right?
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I don't have to sell my soul or nothing, right?
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