tucky | ♻ 018 | text/video

♻ 018 | text/video

[filtered to Dillon, Iris, Mason, and Simon]

[Everyone on this filter gets the same message, sent separately.]

Can you come see me? I need to talk to you.

[Then, after a moment, an addition.]

Don't worry its nothing bad.

[video]

[Later, after finishing visiting with and giving her news to the above people, Tiffany sets herself up to make a public announcement. She sits cross-legged on her bed, turns on the recorder... and suddenly realizes that she has no idea how she wants to say this.]

I...

... There's a Bible verse that I like. It goes like this: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

[She isn't reading it off of anything; she's memorized it. Considering the last verse she took the time to memorize was about smiting God's enemies for Him, this is an improvement.]

If you know me much at all you probably know I'm a big believer in God. And when I first learned about Him, it was the best deal I ever heard of. I'd never been a part of anything before; never been in anybody's fold. But here I was, learning about somebody who'd love me, and give me a reason to be - I wanted that, you know? Who wouldn't? Feeling like you're loved is the nicest thing.

But then I came here, and I learned that being loved is only part of what's important. You gotta love back, honestly and truly. And I do. I have met the most amazing people and made the most amazing friends, and I wouldn't trade any of you for anything. I told Dr. Cambridge a while ago that I got a lot of hate in my heart sometimes, and that's true. I used to like showing it around a lot. But on the Barge I learned that I got a lot of love in my heart too, and I like showing that around even more.

So what I really meant to say is that I graduated, and it's 'cause of y'all, and I love you very much. Even the people I don't like I kind of love a little bit right now.

[She almost adds Except Arthas here, but bites her tongue.]

But especially the people I like; the people who have helped me. And some of you feel the same way and some of you don't, and that's okay, because love is not self-seeking and me feeling it is enough.

[Pause.]

I'm gonna stay. I'm gonna be a warden. It's kinda scary to me, but I'm doing it. I don't always like how it is on the Barge and last month I was thinking maybe I'd leave, but... I can't do that. It's like my home, now.

That's all.

[And she ends the feed.]

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Nope. What's it about?

Bird attacks. Sounds dumb, swear it isn't.

... This is gonna be a weird question, coming from me. So don't look down on me, okay?

Is it real violent? 'Cause after those nightmares back at the beginning of the year, and especially after some stuff that happened while you were gone, I don't... do so good with violent movies anymore. Or ones with a lot of screaming.

[It's in this moment that he realizes he's never been farther away from her than he is now. That he realizes that even if she knows what he is, what he does, she's never going to be okay with it. That's a heavy kind of feeling, and he has to sit with it for a minute.]

. . . No, no, I - We'll watch something else. What's your favorite movie?

I don't know if I have one.

I'm sorry. You don't think I'm a wuss or anything, do you?

No. I think you've seen a lot of things most people don't want to see in their lifetimes.

It's probably the same kind of stuff I'm going to keep seeing on the Barge.

Yeah, I don't think that's gonna stop.

You want to stay here anyway? [He just wants to make sure.]

Yes.

... I'm gonna lose my warden, though. He's going.

Really? He's just leaving you like that.

[He wonders if Horatio would have left him, once he graduated. If he graduated.]

He says he needs to.

Are you scared?

[He wouldn't normally ask so bluntly, but he's not at his most tactful at the moment.]

Yeah, I kind of am. One of my other friends, Simon, has been thinking about going too, and... and I don't know. I've known 'em since I got here. I don't know what the Barge is like without them.

Do you think it'll still be your home if things change?

... Depends on how much they change, I guess.

If I didn't care about anyone or have anyone who cared about me, I wouldn't stay.

Well, I'm not leaving. If that helps any.

And I think people will always care about you here.

I'm liked by more people here than I've ever been liked by anyone, anywhere, in my whole life.

Makes sense that you like it here so much, then. It feels kind of like a family, doesn't it?

Yeah. It does. It's nice.

You wanna be a part of mine?

Tiffany, I'd honestly be very touched if I could be.

Of course you can be! And I am also touched that you want to be.

I've wanted to have family here for a long time.

Is Iris in your family?

Yeah, she is. She's a real important member of it.

Good. Then I think our families will overlap real nice.

Who else you got in yours?

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