♻ 015 | video

[tucky]

[The rips had closed up days ago, but Tiffany doesn't trust that right away - people were still missing and there was clearly something weird going on down at the port, so she refrains from acting like everything is over and done with yet. When people start appearing back on the ship, however, she tentatively lets herself start to believe that things really are winding down... which leads to another problem, for her.]

So, uh… during all that, I had some trouble, and Mason took my soul out of my body for a little bit, so I wouldn't be in pain and couldn't get hurt. He was great, by the way; a fucking badass - strong and brave and fighting monsters. He saved my life. He was a hero.

Y'all tell him that the next time you see him, okay?

[He revels in compliments and praise the same way she does; she has a feeling he'll like it.

And it’s so, so tempting to just focus on that and end the post right there - to do something similar to what she did after the jaeger breach and just gush about how so many people had helped her, and how nice it feels to know she has them in her corner. To just ignore the uncomfortable parts in favor of the good.

But it wouldn’t work as well the second time, and for once, she isn’t sure she’d want it to.]

But when I was out of myself, I tried to go inside a monster, and it-- I didn't really do it, but I almost did, and I felt its soul. It was the worst thing I have ever felt in my life; it was worse than dying in my dreams during that flood. It felt evil, and now my soul feels tainted.

[It isn't, really - luckily for her, any aftereffects from the experience are all in her head.]

I died a lot and then I did that, and I'm worried my soul is turning bad because of it. I don't got any real evidence, so it might not be, but... I think I would appreciate it if someone could check, or try to do an exorcism on me. Just in case.

[She smiles a twitchy smile that doesn't reach her eyes.]

I ain't panicking this time, like I did before. But if there's something wrong with me, I wanna get it fixed.

Thanks.

[filtered to Simon]

... Hey, Simon. Hi.

[filtered to Cambridge]

Maybe when we do our next therapy meeting, we can talk about this? About dying and stuff. I don’t…

I don't think I’m handling it too well.

[filtered to Ricki]

Can I talk to you?

[warden filter]

Comments

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

We've all got our reasons. The ethics of this system are sketchy at best. The wardens who stay here, either they're desperate or they really believe in what we're trying to do here.

[spam]

[tucky]

I think I believe in it. I thought I did.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

[ She sighs, props one hand on her hip and scratches the back of her neck with the other. ]

I'm sorry. What happened this last week, it was pretty bad. Was it your first major crisis?

[spam]

[tucky]

No, not really; I was here for that port. But that one wasn't as bad for me as it was for some other people.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

Well. They're going to keep happening, you know. Arthas isn't the only supervillain in the multiverse. The barge has a way of changing everything.

[spam]

[tucky]

And what are y'all going to do about that?

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

I got you a taser, didn't I?

[spam]

[tucky]

... Yeah.

But I hope you're gonna do more, too. And I don't just mean for me.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

[ She huffs a little sigh. ]

If we're going to do something about Arthas it has to be something that his temp warden approves and nobody objects to too strongly. People are talking it over. Me, I prefer to do what I can when I can do it. And I don't have any ideas to contribute anyway, so. [ She shrugs, indicating the bag she had brought. ]

I work with what I've got.

[spam]

[tucky]

... You're really talking about it?

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

Of course we are. It's just a lot harder when there's no single warden in charge of him.

[spam]

[tucky]

When you decide what to do about him, are we gonna find out about it?

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

Probably. Usually people make announcements about that kind of thing.

[spam]

[tucky]

Good.

... Good.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

So... you want me to show you how to work those things?

[spam]

[tucky]

Yeah, I do. They different from regular tasers?

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

Not by much. But the buttons aren't labelled.

[spam]

[tucky]

Okay. Show me what does what.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

[ Steph points out the safety switch on each taser, the way to change the intensity and duration of the shock, the buttons on the staff to extend it to five feet and to contract it to six inches. All of the weapons are designed to be hard for an enemy to turn on the weilder. ]

[spam]

[tucky]

[Tiffany pays close attention, reaching for the taser hopefully when Steph is done with the demonstration.]

And I can really keep this?

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

Of course! [ She's surprised Tiffany would even ask. ] Babs has like a dozen of each. Hell, I have at least two extra of any of my gear set aside. 'Prepared for everything ever' is kind of how we do in Gotham.

[spam]

[tucky]

You guys are wardens, though.




And I flipped y'all off.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

[ Steph raises her eyebrows, not looking the least bit peeved. ]

You did. Now aren't you glad I'm such a forgiving and generous soul?

[spam]

[tucky]

I guess so.

[spam]

[ichoosefight]

Maybe next time think a little harder about who all you're flipping off, huh?