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[tucky]

[The rips had closed up days ago, but Tiffany doesn't trust that right away - people were still missing and there was clearly something weird going on down at the port, so she refrains from acting like everything is over and done with yet. When people start appearing back on the ship, however, she tentatively lets herself start to believe that things really are winding down... which leads to another problem, for her.]

So, uh… during all that, I had some trouble, and Mason took my soul out of my body for a little bit, so I wouldn't be in pain and couldn't get hurt. He was great, by the way; a fucking badass - strong and brave and fighting monsters. He saved my life. He was a hero.

Y'all tell him that the next time you see him, okay?

[He revels in compliments and praise the same way she does; she has a feeling he'll like it.

And it’s so, so tempting to just focus on that and end the post right there - to do something similar to what she did after the jaeger breach and just gush about how so many people had helped her, and how nice it feels to know she has them in her corner. To just ignore the uncomfortable parts in favor of the good.

But it wouldn’t work as well the second time, and for once, she isn’t sure she’d want it to.]

But when I was out of myself, I tried to go inside a monster, and it-- I didn't really do it, but I almost did, and I felt its soul. It was the worst thing I have ever felt in my life; it was worse than dying in my dreams during that flood. It felt evil, and now my soul feels tainted.

[It isn't, really - luckily for her, any aftereffects from the experience are all in her head.]

I died a lot and then I did that, and I'm worried my soul is turning bad because of it. I don't got any real evidence, so it might not be, but... I think I would appreciate it if someone could check, or try to do an exorcism on me. Just in case.

[She smiles a twitchy smile that doesn't reach her eyes.]

I ain't panicking this time, like I did before. But if there's something wrong with me, I wanna get it fixed.

Thanks.

[filtered to Simon]

... Hey, Simon. Hi.

[filtered to Cambridge]

Maybe when we do our next therapy meeting, we can talk about this? About dying and stuff. I don’t…

I don't think I’m handling it too well.

[filtered to Ricki]

Can I talk to you?

[warden filter]

Comments

[demolitions]

What the hell happened to your body without a soul? Was it dead?

[tucky]

Yeah. It was just lying there. Fucking weird to see.

[demolitions]

I'll bet. How'd you get back into it?

[tucky]

He put me back in later. He can do that, too.

[demolitions]

Well, ain't that... convenient?

[tucky]

Yeah.

Couldn't pick up any weapons while I was out, though.

[demolitions]

Too bad. You could've snuck up on them things.

[tucky]

Yeah, but instead I just sat off to the side and did nothing.

[demolitions]

Well, that is kinda what happens when you get yourself killed anyway.

[tucky]

He wouldn't put me back in. I asked him to, but he said no, and he had to fight it all by himself. He got hurt bad. Mutiliated. Ripped open.

[demolitions]

Jesus Christ.

The Barge fixed him, did it?

[Not that it could erase the excruciating pain of dying that way.]

[tucky]

He fixed himself. He didn't die.

Reaper powers.

[demolitions]

I ain't ever heard of any stories of reaper powers that reverse death. Usually they cause it.

[tucky]

It's just for him, I think, 'cause he's undead.

[demolitions]

No kiddin'. He seemed pretty alive to me, last time I saw him.

[tucky]

We're all pretty alive.

[demolitions]

You just said he wasn't.

[tucky]

Oh, you mean the-- no, undead's different. It ain't the same as being totally dead, I don't think.

[demolitions]

You make him sound like a zombie.

[tucky]

Nothing wrong with being a zombie.

[She's pretty sure that's basically what Simon is.]

But no. He's real alive-like. I wouldn't know he was undead at all if he hadn't told me.

[demolitions]

[Boyd doesn't know Simon, so—]

No, I'm pretty sure bein' a zombie ain't a good thing.

[tucky]

One of the best people I know's a zombie, and he's just fine that way.

[demolitions]

[...Goddammit, Barge.]

So, he's sworn off eatin' brains, has he?

[tucky]

He don't eat anything.

[demolitions]

Well, I guess that's a relief. I'm kinda fond of my brain.