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[tucky]

[If I don't have an active post up, feel free to use this post to have your character call, videochat, text, or knock on Tiffany's door.]

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[characterdefect]

[His hands come to rest at her back, pulling her close.]

Yeah, Tiffany. You can stay here as long as you want.

Wanna come sit?

[tucky]

Okay.

[Except she's not letting go, so hopefully they can maneuver their way over together.]

... Sometimes I wish I had never graduated.

[characterdefect]

[He can do just that. He leads her over to the couch and sets her down so she's still nestled deep in his arms.]

Why's that, honey?

lmao the other notif came with this one

[tucky]

[The best place to be. She presses her face against his chest, but keeps her mouth curved away so she can actually talk.]

I think I lost a friend 'cause I fuck up so much.

dreamwidth get your shit together

[characterdefect]

How'd you lose a friend? What'd you fuck up?

[Petting her hair all the while.]

[tucky]

He just don't like anything I do anymore. He told me I'm a danger to myself and others.

I think he was a little bit right, but I think he was kinda wrong, too. And I don't wanna give up being a warden, but I hope I never get assigned someone permanent 'cause they all deserve someone who's, you know, older and has more experience and everything.

[characterdefect]

[He's silent for a moment, impotent anger bubbling up.]

You're not a danger to anybody.

[tucky]

I was a danger to him, just not on purpose.

[characterdefect]

Then why's he so pissed?

[tucky]

Because it still happened even though it was an accident. But... I don't know how to explain it without telling you what happened, and I can't do that.

... What's something you like to do that ain't a big deal or a secret? Like maybe a food you like to eat a lot. Do you have anything like that?

[characterdefect]

[Well, where is this going, now.]

I like steak, I guess.

[tucky]

Okay, so it’s like you and steak, right. It’s like if I told somebody “Roderick really likes to eat steak”, ‘cause it’s just something you do and I don’t got any reason to think it’s a big deal. But then later I found out it was a big deal, and by telling somebody that you like steak, I was putting you and other people in a lot of danger.

I know that still doesn’t make sense. But I wouldn’t’ve said nothing if it seemed weird or big, and it didn’t. It just seemed like a normal thing that would never be important or a secret, and he never fucking told me it was or said I needed to keep quiet about it.

So I’m kinda mad at him about that. It was my fault, but I feel kinda like it was his fault, too. And he was so mad, and he ain’t never gonna forgive me now. He can be wonderful and kind and understanding, but he... he can be hard and cold, too, and I’m pretty sure if somebody messes up with him, he’s done with ‘em forever. He seems like that kind of person to me.

[characterdefect]

I'd forgive you if you messed up. And I wouldn't lie to you like that. You don't deserve that shit.

[tucky]

He didn't lie, he just... didn't tell me. And that's okay; he doesn't have to tell me everything.

But I wouldn't've told someone else if I knew it was important.

[characterdefect]

It seems like a lie to me. Something important like that.

[tucky]

There's a word for a lie that's only a lie 'cause you're leaving something out, right? Maybe it was that.

[characterdefect]

It's called a lie of omission. And it's still wrong.

[tucky]

Nah. I don't expect everybody to tell me everything. I just feel like it's his fault too, and mine, 'cause he didn't tell me it was a secret. Does that make any sense?

[characterdefect]

. . . Guess so. I'm just always going to take your side.

[tucky]

[She smiles shakily, sniffling.]

I like having someone who's always gonna take my side. It makes me feel safe.

[characterdefect]

You're safe with me.

[The truth, although admittedly a weird truth. He resumes stroking her hair.]

I'm sorry something like this happened to you.

[tucky]

So many somethings have happened to me. I feel like all of them wouldn't've happened if I weren't so stupid.

[characterdefect]

You're not stupid, sweetheart. Don't say you are.

[tucky]

You're just saying that 'cause you like me, Roderick.

[characterdefect]

I'm saying it 'cause it's true. I don't like you saying bad things about yourself because I like you, though.