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If he wakes up and doesn't want you here, I'll kick you out whether you did or not. But right now I don't got any reason to think you shouldn't be here.

He might not.

[If this brought back memories of Jedao One - if he just doesn't want to see Jedao's face -]

Some people could be very cruel with one whisper, before someone dazed could say anything at all. I wouldn't do that either. But you could.

Maybe. Or maybe kicking you out right now would be the worse thing.

There's always a chance I'm gonna make the wrong choice.

I just -

[His hands flex, bare of Jedao One's ever-present fingerless gloves, empty.]

I just think of this stuff.

It's okay.

[She says, and refrains from saying that she's pretty sure Jedao Prime thought about it, too.]

You gonna call me stupid or naive, though? Or think those things without saying them? 'Cause if you're thinking them I'd like it better if you just said it out loud.

[He blinks, slowly. It's not quite a stall for time, but it is him pausing for a moment, thinking through things that hadn't quite occurred to him before, not in so many words. Things he was processing on fumes and instinct.]

I don't know you yet. I don't know this place, either. I don't know what precautions you have, or how well you know the dynamics and high risk actors here, but it's probably better than me. I don't know how good you are at reading body language, or whether you would have asked more questions if it had been Flint here instead of me. I don't know if my worries are reasonable or paranoid, here. If this is a thing people bother to try often enough that screening for it is worth the tradeoffs. I don't understand why anyone would hurt Fitz and I'm freaking out a little bit.

To the extent I was pushing you and trying to figure it out, I think I was more worried you might be - careless. Or just have blind spots. Different people register different kinds of harm differently. That isn't the same as being naive.

[If she wants him to say what he's thinking out loud...]

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[She does indeed, and she so appreciates this, buddy.]

If Flint shows up I wouldn't let him stay here at all unless he needed medical treatment, and then he'd get a private room. I mean, unless I had a real good reason to think that Fitz would be okay with him hanging out, and I don't.

[She sighs.]

I don't know why anybody would hurt Fitz, either. I'm sorry.

What if someone's body appeared here and you didn't know who had done it yet?

...sorry. It's your job. I'll just.

[The last time he sat in Medical with someone he cared about unconscious - no, no. He's not thinking about that. It's different. He's not thinking about whatever Jedao One did to Fitz either, what he could be capable of. He's just - he's just going to sit.]

You're asking because you're worried and scared. That doesn't bother me. And if somebody's body showed up and we didn't know what'd happened...

... I think I'm pretty good at reading body language. Alec's even better. I'm not gonna say we'd never fuck it up, but I don't think either of us is careless. Dracula neither.

Thank you.

[For telling him, for taking it seriously.]

You're welcome.

I do got blind spots sometimes. I got different ones from the ones I had when I got here. I think talking about this stuff is important, and not just to make you feel better.

Generally I like to be better briefed before I start offering assessments, but.

[His hand hovers for a moment, like he wants to reach for Fitz's hand, but ultimately he does't do it.]

[Tiffany sees this, and it breaks her heart a little bit. You sad, sad boy.]

It's hard to get briefed on anything here. Stuff is always changing.

-- I can tell he matters to you, Jedao. That ain't hard to read at all.

We don't even know each other.

[Except for the ways that Fitz seemed to - not just accept, but understand.]

But he was kind to me, when I gather he had every reason not to be.

Well, I didn't say "it seems like y'all know each other really well". Sometimes stuff just hits fast.

Has that happened to you, here?

Yeah. There's people I knew I'd love from the first time I met them.

[Against his will, he thinks of Kujen, even though it wasn't like that at all. He knows perfectly well it was just being stupid and horny.]

I don't know if it's that.

Well, there's been times I knew I really liked people right away, too - or just felt, like, a connection with them. It ain't always extreme.

Tell me about someone? A time it happened for you?

Have you met Sariss yet?

No, I don't think so.

She talks like a queen, and moves like a confident person, and she's graceful and refined and dignified and all of that. She's not the kind of person who I'm used to feeling relaxed around.

But when I did a small, nice thing for her, she thanked me like it was the biggest thing in the world. And that-- I got that.

...I know what you mean.

Yeah? You mean about small, nice things that seem big?

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