♻ 019 | audio

[tucky]

[filtered to Letty]

Can I talk to you?

[filtered to Roderick]

Can you come and see me? I'm in 603.

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[characterdefect]

Yeah. He's all right.

[tucky]

Do you still think I am?

[characterdefect]

You think I'd even considering changing for somebody who wasn't?

[tucky]

Thought you said you weren't considering it.

[characterdefect]

I'm considering considering it.

. . . I'm considering not totally ignoring you, is what I'm considering.

[tucky]

[She tries to smile. Her mouth twitches, anyway.]

Okay.

[characterdefect]

[A quick, hesitant smile. Whatever high he felt that didn't fade when Lloyd beat the shit out of him is fading now.]

You gonna be okay?

[tucky]

No.

Being a warden's not like I thought it would be.

[characterdefect]

What did you think it'd be?

[tucky]

Easier. I thought graduating would mean I'd know what to do.

[characterdefect]

I don't think that's how it works.

[tucky]

People warned me about that. I guess there's just a part of me that thought they was wrong.

I still wanna stay. I just wish I was still an inmate, sometimes.

[characterdefect]

Because you don't want to have to figure things out by yourself?

[tucky]

Some things. The harder things. Other things I like figuring out by myself.

[characterdefect]

That's good. That's good.

You don't have to figure me out if you don't want to.

[tucky]

But I do want to.

[characterdefect]

Then I'm sorry it's not going to be all that much fun for you. I am who I am. I'm not gonna be ashamed of it. Not here, not anywhere.

[tucky]

I know it's not gonna be fun. But lots of things aren't.

I'd wanna understand you even if I was still an inmate, it'd just... feel different. To me.

[characterdefect]

Different how?

[tucky]

Different like I wouldn't feel like I was a failure if I messed up.

[characterdefect]

You're not a failure. I'm not your inmate.

[tucky]

You're my friend.

[characterdefect]

But you're my friend whether you're a warden or not.

[tucky]

I know. And I don't think I'm a different person now from how I was, like, last month. But I got responsibilities that I didn't have before.

... I meant everything I said, that night in Paris.

[characterdefect]

I know you did. I believed you then and I believe you now.

I'm sorry I can't give you a hug, Tiffany.