tucky: (I respond well to disembodied voices)
Tiffany Doggett ([personal profile] tucky) wrote2015-05-10 04:24 pm

♻ 018 | text/video

[filtered to Dillon, Iris, Mason, and Simon]

[Everyone on this filter gets the same message, sent separately.]

Can you come see me? I need to talk to you.

[Then, after a moment, an addition.]

Don't worry its nothing bad.

[video]

[Later, after finishing visiting with and giving her news to the above people, Tiffany sets herself up to make a public announcement. She sits cross-legged on her bed, turns on the recorder... and suddenly realizes that she has no idea how she wants to say this.]

I...

... There's a Bible verse that I like. It goes like this: "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."

[She isn't reading it off of anything; she's memorized it. Considering the last verse she took the time to memorize was about smiting God's enemies for Him, this is an improvement.]

If you know me much at all you probably know I'm a big believer in God. And when I first learned about Him, it was the best deal I ever heard of. I'd never been a part of anything before; never been in anybody's fold. But here I was, learning about somebody who'd love me, and give me a reason to be - I wanted that, you know? Who wouldn't? Feeling like you're loved is the nicest thing.

But then I came here, and I learned that being loved is only part of what's important. You gotta love back, honestly and truly. And I do. I have met the most amazing people and made the most amazing friends, and I wouldn't trade any of you for anything. I told Dr. Cambridge a while ago that I got a lot of hate in my heart sometimes, and that's true. I used to like showing it around a lot. But on the Barge I learned that I got a lot of love in my heart too, and I like showing that around even more.

So what I really meant to say is that I graduated, and it's 'cause of y'all, and I love you very much. Even the people I don't like I kind of love a little bit right now.

[She almost adds Except Arthas here, but bites her tongue.]

But especially the people I like; the people who have helped me. And some of you feel the same way and some of you don't, and that's okay, because love is not self-seeking and me feeling it is enough.

[Pause.]

I'm gonna stay. I'm gonna be a warden. It's kinda scary to me, but I'm doing it. I don't always like how it is on the Barge and last month I was thinking maybe I'd leave, but... I can't do that. It's like my home, now.

That's all.

[And she ends the feed.]
orderfromchaos: (grin)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-11 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Seriously?

[He's grinning already, though, brighter than he has in a long time.]
orderfromchaos: (everything went better than expected)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-12 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah.

Are you proud of you?
orderfromchaos: (casual)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-12 01:58 pm (UTC)(link)
You can.

[He takes her hand, though, gives it a careful squeeze.]

You're your own person. And that means you can choose not to right now.
orderfromchaos: (sympathy from the devil)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-12 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[Quietly,]

I've had some people who got like that. I'd hate for it to happen to you, is all.

[This is Not A Sad Talk, tho.]

Have you picked your deal?
orderfromchaos: (everything went better than expected)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-17 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
[He leans forward, knocks their foreheads together gently.]

That's what I'm proud of.
orderfromchaos: (fond city)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-17 02:17 am (UTC)(link)
I got that feeling, yeah.
orderfromchaos: (casual)

[personal profile] orderfromchaos 2015-05-18 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad.

[It's funny, he thinks distantly, because he doesn't, really - he's more accepting of himself than he was, but pride? No, not really. But he's so glad she found her way there, for things that were real and hard and kind and her own, rather than bigotry and bluster, wants to hold the knowledge of it close like a hot mug in cold hands in the winter.]

Love you too.