♻ 016 | audio

[tucky]

You know, I been wondering. If a girl gets pregnant and kills the baby, how many of y'all consider that murder? It's a real... hot-button issue where I come from, I guess; it's a big deal. There's people who feel so strongly about it that they believe the ones who actually do it - the doctors and stuff, and the people who work for 'em - deserve to die too. And it happens. People will go in and kill somebody like that, and other people will celebrate.

But then there's other people who say it ain't bad at all, 'cause we got rights to our own bodies and nobody should try and take that away. That's sexual liberation, and it's the same thing that says girls should be able to have a lot of sex and not get called sluts and whores. I always liked that part, at least, 'cause I been called those things before and it makes you feel dirty and small. But I knew guys who had way more sex than I did, and they never got called shit. Ever notice that? It's weird, how that happens.

And then there's the whole issue with condoms - which I use now, mostly, when I remember, so I don't need another lecture about that; don't worry. If you're gonna have sex, you're supposed to use 'em, or you end up with that problem I already talked about. But condoms are a real pain - they ain’t sexy or romantic or anything like that. You got to stop and put 'em on, and then you can feel 'em, and… I don’t know, I just like it better without. And I bet I ain't the only one.

It's confusing to think about; all of this is. But it's all tied together.

[warden filter]

I'm sorry for flipping the bird on the warden filter last week. I was mad and I'm still a little mad, but I think I do trust y'all, and I would like my actions not to be held against me. Please. Thank you.

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voice

[rickitikitarr]

Diseases?

[A skeptical shrug. Guess who lives in pre-pandemic times?]

voice

[tucky]

You know, STDs?

voice

[rickitikitarr]

You're not going to catch anything a course of antibiotics wouldn't clear up.

[Which used to be true.]

voice

[tucky]

Tell the wardens that.

... Still ain't much fun, though.

voice

[rickitikitarr]

I suppose so.

[Shaking his head, as he realizes how long it's been since he thought of taking someone home. Bowing out of this discussion now.]

Hey, how've you been?

voice

[tucky]

Better. And now I'm getting all thoughtful and shit.

voice

[rickitikitarr]

Never let it be said that you ask the easy questions, though.

[He says. It's one of the things he likes about her.]

voice

[tucky]

If they're easy, I already know the answers.

voice

[formerself]

Uh, that ain't true.

voice

[tucky]

Which ones are you thinking about here?

voice

[rickitikitarr]

The antibiotics?

voice

[tucky]

Nah, I meant him. Which diseases. There's a few, I think.

voice

[formerself]

HIV, AIDS?

I don't think you can do a lot with Hep B once you've got it, either.

Ain't sayin' nobody here's got anythin' like that, or you have, just...principle, yeah?

voice; cw: accidental homophobia

[tucky]

I guess so. Only... I thought straight girls didn't have to worry about AIDS so much. That's what I've always heard.

voice

[formerself]

What I heard an' all. [shitty misinformative upbringing highfives?] But that ain't true either.

voice

[tucky]

Really? That's... yeah, that's good to know. And condoms protect against that shit?

voice

[formerself]

Yeah. Only thing that does. [Besides abstinence, but. No?] When you use 'em always, not mostly.

voice

[tucky]

Don't guys also not like them?

gdi I have to

[americasdirtiest]

We like AIDS less.

For fuck's sake...

voice

[formerself]

[Real answer: ehn kinda. 'Impromptu Barge sex ed', also true answer?]

I like condoms a lot more than I like getting warts on my --

[oh hey bro]

What Mickey said. That.

voice

[rickitikitarr]

I've never heard of those. Did we have them in the seventies?

[The usual culprit of his huge knowledge gaps.]

voice

[formerself]

HIV an' AIDS wasn't 'til the eighties. You get one and it gets to be the other if you don't get on drugs for it? Fucks up your immune system, so, you catch a cold and end up dead of pneumonia.

voice

[rickitikitarr]

That's horrible.

[In the future sex is ruined? Ricki doesn't want to go.]

voice

[formerself]

Yeah, it is. Only they had condoms in the Seventies too, din't they?

[future sex is okay ricki you just have to take precautions!]

voice

[rickitikitarr]

Back home, sure, but not available anywhere in Malaysia there isn't, and that's where I was doing my worst.