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[tucky]

I been thinking. I thought it was cool how the Enclosure got programmed the way it did for Bucky's party, so I was wondering if I could do that, too-- not for a party, but for a fireworks show. I don't know if any of the people here have ever been to one, but where I come from, they're real popular in the summer. You go to a big empty field at night, sit on blankets, and just... watch. Maybe bring out a keg of beer or something, I don't know. You think the Enclosure could do that?

I wanted to do it on my birthday, if things are all calmed down. Sometimes these shows can get crazy and loud with people dancing and partying, but I know I ain't in a raucous mood, and I bet I'm not the only one. So maybe a quiet one would be good right now. Something relaxing.

It'd be nice, I think.

[filtered to Dillon, Iris, Letty, Mason, Morgana, and Simon]

Merlin's better. He-- it's real complicated, but he didn't mean that stuff he said. I know that nothing was making him say it, but he had those parasites in him that had him thinking it was the best thing to do, and... he regrets it. He changed his mind.

[She sounds relieved, if just a tiny bit wary. She wasn't affected by the Sha herself, and she still isn't 100% clear on what exactly it was or how it worked-- so while she's ever-trusting and wants to give her warden the benefit of the doubt, it's going to take her a week or so of him being normal for her to fully believe that he really is staying, and he really does want her as his inmate.]

I ain't mad at him. Y'all don't have to be either.

[Mason and Simon, she's looking at you.]

[filtered to Crowley]

Hi.

Comments

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[tucky]

Could do it, or could like it?

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[youwillgotohell]

Both. It had been a long time since I'd done either.

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[tucky]

I guess it worked, 'cause you're a warden now.

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[youwillgotohell]

Something must have worked.

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[tucky]

You don't know what it was?

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[youwillgotohell]

It was a lot of things. I don't...I couldn't say any one thing that changed it. Me.

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[tucky]

Is it like that with everyone?

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[youwillgotohell]

Well I didn't exactly take a poll.

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[tucky]

Maybe you should, and then other people would know how to graduate.

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[youwillgotohell]

If there was a set path, someone would have sorted it out by now.

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[tucky]

... I know.

I just wish there was.

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[youwillgotohell]

Do you want to graduate?

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[tucky]

Of course I do.

[She likes the abstract idea of graduating, anyway. Once she gets closer to actually doing it it'll freak her out a bit.]

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[youwillgotohell]

Then you're already a dozen steps ahead of where I was. [Morgana would understand that intimately.]

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[tucky]

I don't get why people don't want to graduate.

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[youwillgotohell]

Because it changes you.

[She thinks of something Ivy told her, years ago, about holding to her convictions. Only she realized, eventually, that those convictions were wrong.]

That used to terrify me.

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[tucky]

But it does it in a way that makes you feel good.

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[youwillgotohell]

It doesn't always feel good.

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[tucky]

What part feels bad?

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[youwillgotohell]

The part that feels like betrayal.

[It's so much harder with her sister here, because she knows it should feel easier.]

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[tucky]

I haven't... had that part yet.

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[youwillgotohell]

I hope you don't.

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[tucky]

I don't get who I'd be betraying.

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[youwillgotohell]

[She only shrugs at that; she can't quite bring herself to give her own example. She doesn't want to admit that any of what she's done has been a betrayal to Morgause.]

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[tucky]

... Do you think I'd be betraying anyone?