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Hey, y'all. I been thinking about some stuff lately - about powers. I don't have any and I never did, except for Admiral powers and except for one time when I thought I had some of my own - but that's another story.

They're just kinda all over the place here, I noticed. Arthas had his, and he tried to kill the whole Barge. And I know wardens hurt people with their powers sometimes. I've seen it. And we got inmates who don't have any powers at all, but still hurt and kill people. It's like I was telling someone earlier - it ain't like the Barge is safe when inmates have powers, and dangerous when they don't. It's a lot more complicated than that.

I got two inmates I been talking to, Lourdes and Pietro - and they want their powers back 'cause they don't feel right and whole without 'em. And I don't blame 'em, if I'm gonna be real honest. I maybe would have, before I was a warden, but now I got a different perspective. We're letting parts of people be locked away, and how's anyone supposed to trust us if we do that and don't care?

But maybe it ain't right to just give 'em back without thinking about it, neither - 'cause some of the powers are dangerous, and all of us'd be affected if something happened. So we decided that since they don't got wardens of their own, we're gonna talk to the whole Barge about it and see if any of y'all got objections. Or-- or questions or concerns. Stuff like that.

Pietro's got super speed, and super senses so he can see things okay when he's using his super speed. Lourdes can control people's bodies, and their minds, and even the chemicals inside 'em. Now, that's a whole fucking lot - so she's mostly what I wanna talk about today, I guess. We got Iris and Jean and all those guys who can protect people from stuff like that, but it can still be dangerous. So we're asking you.

Everybody gets a say.

[filtered to Lourdes]

if you get em back i want to talk about how your gonna use em ok

[filtered to Barbara, Cain, Dillon, Eggsy, Iris, Jean, Letty, Lloyd, Lydia, Ricki, Roderick, Simon, Tig; dated to after the post has been up for a while]

I'm giving Lourdes her powers back - but only when she's in the Enclosure with me. Now, I don't think she's gonna hurt me - but if she does, I don't want any of y'all hurting her back, okay? I ain't saying no punishment, or no being mad. Just no torturing or murdering or nothing. Thanks.

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I won't tell if you don't.

I mean, I don't know it would work for anyone. I think he likes me.

[This may be hubris. But. It may not.]

But given how that turned out I'm not interested in publicizing the possibility, no.

[Which she is somewhat uncomfortable with; she knew she'd get burned by Arthas, and she did. It's not fair to take that out on anyone else, and she's not sure that isn't what she's doing.]

[Iris shrugs.]

They want to kill someone bad enough they'll always do it, powers or no powers.

[This is Iris for Arthas happens, this wasn't your fault.]

But I also think people that've got powers need to learn 'ow to live without. I'm just not interested in getting shouted down in public for saying it.

[She swallows, wants to say thank you, but.]

I don't know if I can tell myself that. Even if it's true - I could get so jaded, Iris. I could stop caring about all the suffering in middle. It'll happen, get over it, get through. That's well enough for me, but - I made a judgement call, and it had consequences. That has to matter.

[A quick sigh.]

There's reasons why we do it the way we do. I think those are coming out, mostly. And I think you're right.

...did you? Learn to live without, sometime?

No, well. I'm getting it in the neck over Victor and Cassel and I'm ...I did everything I knew 'ow to do and it still weren't good enough. And I don't even know 'ow I feel about that now. Mickey's making it sound like I gave everyone a guarantee and then did nowt, which ...you know, if Cassel 'ad called for Kara she would've heard. But saying that's going to sound like blaming Cassel to shift it off meself. So I'm not saying it and I'm trying not to think it. I'd rather it be my fault.

Except it's not, it's bloody Vic's fault, and Arthas' bollocks is 'is fault. Inmate or not, they're both grown men, they're not animals or mindless bloody zombies.

And aye, I did, and not just on the barge. And I hated it. But you remember Rassilon? 'E's one that reached for the mind control button every time 'e thought 'e might lose an argument. So aye, I do think everyone needs it.

Iris, it wasn't even your call.

I'm sorry, I'm not blaming Chris either, - or maybe I am, a little, if only because he went about it almost exactly the same way this time around. But if we hold what their previous selves and alternate faces do against them we'll lose more of them, nobody knows that better than me, so you can't blame him.

It is on Victor. And he did it because he knew going after you or Chris directly would cause less trouble. I'm sorry it's landing on you. You wanted him to be treated like a person, not a safe one, and that's - I get that. I don't think most of the frustration is really about you.

Oh, I think undermining my credibility were a big part of Vic's plan with this. And 'e's done a great job there. And people wonder why I love the miserable bastard.

But aye, it's why I'm keeping my 'ead down in this argument. Truth is, in this job, every decision you ever make's got potential to blow up in your face whatever you do; and someone'll jump down your throat whichever way you jump. All you can ever do is your best, and stay ready to pick up the pieces.

'Cause there are always going to be pieces, aren't there?

And pushing you away, too?

[Yes, to all the rest of it. Yes, and not much else to say.]

Oh, if Vic thinks 'e's managed that 'e's in for a rude awakening soon. I just thought I'd let 'im lull 'imself into a false sense of security till I stop wanting to kick 'is nadgers out of 'is ear'oles.

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I didn't expect less for a moment. But some of them are set on trying, aren't they.

It's another fine line to walk. Where does being there for someone stop and pushing into their lives unwanted from a position of greater power start? I've 'ad my 'ead bitten off for that before and all.

Least Vic mostly only does that literally.

I know. I've been trying to hold back more with Pietro than, I don't know, someone like Dean, but -

[She can see how well that plan is going, hahaha.]

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