I know, and I'm glad you aren't telling us to stay out, whole hog. But if I do anything to punish her, I'll get carried away, I know I will. Maybe it's the same for Iris. Me, I'd rather stop it happening in the first place, but I know I can't. And I know I shouldn't. If we don't let Lourdes and the others make mistakes they're never going to grow up.

It's just hard to figure out how to be a warden and a friend, is all, when as a friend I'd do something that might get me demoted.